Monday, August 31, 2009 @
fuck you.i seriously hate you to the core.thanks to you. my life is in shambles. seriously i CURSE u. i've never cursed anyone. but u made it to the top.i CURSE THAT YOU'LL NEVER FIND SOMEONE WHO TREATS U WELL AND THAT YOUR FRIENDS WILL ...KNOW FUCKING SELFISH AND DEMANDING U ARE.STOP CLAIMING TT U STILL LOVE ME. BULLSHIT.i wouldnt be fucking surprised if i end up DEAD! ALL FUCKING THANKS TO YOU.UR FRIENDS ALL DAMN ATAS DAMN GOOD.MY FRIENDS ARE ALL LOWLY YA?I WILL ALWAYS BE A SHADOW AND A MILD PRESENCE IN EVERYONE'S LIFE.FUCK.
Sunday, August 30, 2009 @
i've learnt. i'll let you go. i'll just leave things with you as it is.
i've never felt better.
yesterday was fun. amanda was crazy. i shall spare the details.
you want details, u go read her blog lar. amanda <-- link
red wine. white wine. red wine. white wine. vodka shots.
all that equates to amanda = DRUNK.
all before 11.30pm. :P HAHAHAHAHA
had to trouble alex to send her back.
and yes. amanda. you almost killed us all. zzzz.
me and mimie plus cathy headed on to Arena soon after. danced. and there was a slight argument. we seperated ways.
while on my way back. one bloody bangala accused me of taking his wallet when i was just sitting alone eating instant noodles. and only to realise. his wallet was all along on the floor.
Saturday, August 29, 2009 @
should i just stop?
everything that i've been doing..
i don't see myself going anywhere. anymore.
life seems pretty meaningless so suddenly.
all colors in my life are lost and everything else seems bleak.
it disgusts me thouroughly. and it's making me sick.
should i just give up?
i'm really confused.
i can't take this anymore.
Friday, August 28, 2009 @
i went loco.
i gave my boss the sack.
yes. i'm jobless.
i need to find a job quickly.
You must be damn happy now.
how the heck am i supposed to save for school now. wtf. tomorrow's gonna be at hard rock. 987 RSVP. hope it chills me off quite a bit.
speaking of which. Shan & Roz called in unexpectedly. apparently my email got thru. and i won $42. Damn, windows live email doesnt allow me to send more.
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it's starting to rain pretty much recently.
it makes me oozy.
i received an sms from you yesterday.
no. i won't and i'll never. subject myself to this foolishness you once more.
clubs. drinks. late night hangout.
all this just to stay away from the now-empty room i have.
it's sad.
Met Her up yesterday night, just to take some things..
am i doing too much? She's not seeing anything that i've done.
that whole day with Her. going all places. things and so till late at night.
made me realise even more on how much i feel for her.
She's got many guys around her. i guess i'm just a mild presence in Her life i guess.
Well, as long She's happy.And i know as far as She's concerned, i'm standing somewhere behind Her.
BabyFace - Mad Sexy Cool
You don't ever bring no drama to the game
and my drama don't be scaring you away
you dont ever talk to much
exactly just enough
you know how and when and where and what to say
it aint like i gotta tell you your so fine
you been gettin complements since you was nine
its like you're perfect
a dimond in the rough
...
it aint like i gotta tell you your a star
you be shining and be sparkling in the dark
girl you so perfect
you're my dimond in the rough
...
how does someone
so beautiful
so approachable
none so adorable
guess your my kinda wonderful
my dream come true
...
You are such a mad sexy cool girl
how does someone turn into you girl
how do you explain
what you do
what you say
how you be
how you play
how you love
everyday
how your constantly the same
how you give
never hate
and you dont ever change
be consistantly that way
your a mad sexy cool girl, and i love you the same..
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