May all truth be dead.

2011-03-01T01:03:00.001+08:00

supposed 1st year anniversary.

I wish you're happier.

happy anniversary.

2011-02-27T16:25:00.002+08:00

a lesson? it aint something as simple as a lesson.

if it was JUST a lesson, i could have just restarted when i failed the LESSON.

Misery. that's what i've learnt to know. Thank you passerby.

I know who you are. But what's the point. You know it yourself, to you, it will be just someone who just paced thru ur life. To be forgotten.

Went over to the places we've first met and been to... flashbacks.

followed by rounds of MJ at nick's place.

Remedial Training in the morning took out whaever juice i have left.. but i just cant sleep..

my head is just full of. the past.

2011-02-22T22:34:00.002+08:00

i admit, i am defeated by myself.

i'm still missing someone largely.

there's no point many will say, but i just can't help it.

love's a mystery and feelings are blindfolds.

looking back at past pictures we took aches my heart nonetheless.

looking at the lil notes we leave each other makes it even worse.

those promises, made. are all broken and left shattered in the very end..

i've done all I could, clearing the debris left broken down..

but once in a while, i will still step onto those unswept broken pieces..

it goes deep into the wound.. right into the nerves..

the heart aches come around all over. Again.

Is that feeling one of missing someone? or just wallowing in the past..?

2011-02-14T21:33:00.002+08:00

valentine's day gonna be over in 3 hours.

dreary time over this day.

valentine's day is seriously overrated.

gonna sleep thru..

2011-01-14T00:32:00.001+08:00

Yeah i'm sorry, i can't afford a ferrari,
But that don't mean i can't get you there.
I guess he's an xbox and i'm more atari,
But the way you play your game ain't fair.

Now i know, that i had to borrow,
Beg and steal and lie and cheat.
Trying to keep ya, trying to please ya.
'Cause being in love with you ass ain't cheap.

And although there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best with a...
Fuck you. ((:

2011-01-03T00:43:00.002+08:00

2010 was a terrible terrible year.

and i think 2011 is NO BETTER.

new years eve. was being put on aeroplane. went to powerhouse by myself.

countdown in MRT train.

went home at 6.

and to you. yea. i owe you money if ur so calculative.

who was the one insisted on lending me the money when i refused continually.

since u like to be so calculative.

we'll see on the CONFRONTATION later.

i'll make sure i'll put down every single thing accountable for. mentally and monetary.

i'll clear the list out totally.

i don't need 2 headed snakes for friends.

2010-12-26T01:27:00.002+08:00

it was a lonely christmas. the mood wasn't there at all. thou i had friends with me.

everything just isn't right.

this has to stop.

once and for all.

i had done everything for you. but you won't just do the same.

peace out.

2010-12-12T16:23:00.003+08:00

mental turmoil taking over.

i'm totally clueless on where is this heading...

was at powerhaus yesternight. not exactly a very peaceful night to drink for...

I know you're somewhere out there, Somewhere far away
I want you back
my neighbours think I'm crazy
but they don't understand
you're all I have

At night when the stars
light up my room
i sit by myself..
talking to the Moon, trying to get to You
in hopes you're on the other side..
talking to me too..

Or am I a fool
who sits alone
talking to the moon..

2010-11-21T10:11:00.001+08:00

i've seen thru it all. because everything else was just one

big fat lie.

2010-11-12T18:58:00.002+08:00

it's nothing but bullshit. all an act you put up for everyone to see.

2010-10-04T03:22:00.000+08:00

baby, i love you..

but do you..?

maybe u do not express it to me.. but sometimes i seriously cant feel it sometimes.. the connection we used to have.. from the days we started 7 months ago..

i'm really feeling very broken. and no one fixed it up.. will you fix me up? i need you to support me in the things i do.. not just by telling me to 'go ahead lor'..

or maybe in your eyes.. in everyone's eyes.. i'm just.

a nobody.

because the things i do. never seemed to please anyone.

i still feel that my life.

is nothing. but thrash.

i've been having weird dreams the past few nights too..

that ur telling other guys.. our relationship aint good, heading nowhere..

it's not that i'm not trusting enough. neither is it that i have no faith in our relationship, but these nightmares.. they scare the shit out of me..

you don't even talk to me much.. how am i supposed to know..

i'm feeling very thrashy..

2010-08-14T19:27:00.002+08:00

i had quit my job with my uncle.. already couldnt take it anymore..

me and baby are getting much better already.. and i seriously love her to bits..

but today. i came home from work this morning already, slept for 3 hours already not tired, thought of spending time with her in the afternoon till evening before i head off to work at night.. but guess it wasnt possible.. i slept away the good whole saturday once more feeling damn alone.

i treasure my weekends alot. especially when i work at night, because it usually would mean that the time i have left for the weekend is very limited.. and i would very much treasure the time and use it to accompany gf or my grandfolks rather than to sleep it away..

plus now i'm limited by public transport, travelling to my grandfolks area would be an hassle already..

then today thought of spending time with her, who knew she wanted to go out with her friend..

and from there i heard that i am not invited. no. more like BARRED and BANNED to be in her certain friend's birthday party just because i would spoil the birthday mood and her fun and make her a lightbulb? i'm speechless and yet hurt. she will be the birthday girl and she's definitely getting all the attention.

not that i dun allow my gf to club actually, because i should trust her to be responsible for her own actions. but anyone who realises the above reasons that u cannot be invited would be hurt.

can some one tell me? whether is it that i am selfish or not?

2010-08-10T21:54:00.000+08:00

piggy baby

baby i love u i thank what u had done for me. i dunno will u read this msg?
But thank for letting me stay at ur house and ur bed i know it hard for u to sleep a small bed with me. i will every time got to use ur laptop i will up date one msg to u.

love u silly baby faith 12 march 2010

piggy baby

now it 3.55am updateu msg >.<
thank for been so nice to me... every sec i with u, u will bring ur best and make me smile when as where u will jus so sweet and making my heart melt to u. erm ytd all along in the bed feel like short of something. and tat it u cause ur body warm quiet down my temperature. now u must be busy up to no time reply me. i go slp night

love u silly baby faith 14 march 2010

piggy baby

how was ur work? are u tired? i now the bed only i alone sleeping on it. i miss u badlly. erm i know u have to work if not u will unable to take care me and urself -.-. xin gu ni le>.< it been like together like more the few year couple. i will treasure of ur love and care. i really want to take care of u but end up it, u are the one tkaing me. i love u. And god will plan everything out.

love u silly baby faith 15 march 2010

(ps: baby, i was missing u like crazy while at work. coming home seeing u sleeping soundly like a piglet really warms my heart. love you loads and loads baby. ((: )

piggy baby

i know it have been hard time for u been working and looking after me. But when i working in morning. once u reach home without seeing me i know it will hard time for u to rest well. i know u worry me. btw u are good or bad guy? i knowing u in good side. but bad i seeing nothing. whatever my friend say on u. i will surely screw them up. haha. i love u. and it start missing u

love u silly baby faith 15 march 2010 6:16pm

piggy baby

u are the best boyfriend i really had. u are sweet, knowing me well, taking care of me, worry for me, protective me, trust on me, dote me, love me, and wonderful to me. i thank you what u had done for me. i love you with all my heart and i dunno will i show u attitude and make u angry hopefully i will not. i really missing u.

love u silly baby faith 17 march 2010

(ps: baby, i will NEVER ever be angry against you, because u are the sweetest ever girl that ever came into my life and i love you way too much to be angry with you.. i miss you.)

piggy baby

did u feeling ok if u not ok better go seee a doctor and rest at home. erm i know during sick really xin gu. need to do alot of thing but end up in bed and the time pass. i see u so xin gu i heart pain. really hope ur sick will recover i love u. thank for this few day of sharing ur past.

love u silly baby faith 18 march 2010

(baby, i'll be fine. im feeling much better le. thou i hope i can continue to be sick so i could take mc then i can see u at home.. =.= and baby, i felt that we're really close to each other during our intimate moments yesterday. >.< love you baby.. tonight come home rest well ok? and tmr will give u wake up call at 5 too.. sigh whole day cant see u.. sigh... i miss u baby.)

piggy baby

i know it hard to not see each other for one day if u go resevicer wasn't tat u will want to hang over? thank for rush all the way down to see me but i was too busy no time for break or even free time. today it busy so i lazy walk home so i ot to 12.30 but i 12.15 left cause the house man let me off cause due to they know me well =) so i able to rest more before took transport home. baby can u tell me what time tml u working? 6 or 5? haha see i able to plan out the time to see each other? but really can't i try to wait for u. i really want to see u after one and half day. i miss u badlly and remember take good care of urself.. drink more water.

silly baby faith 20 march 2010 1.38 am

piggy baby

haha i know u mc ytd cause we do too much thing. and both of us like zobie>.<
erm today i never work izzit bad ro good but i think jus let it be cause i think i work so much i been hurtiong myself. for the friday and saturday. i been working not enough rest, and my back really ache. but i still can tahan.i reallyso touch having u. and making wounderful time with u.

silly baby faith 22 march 2010 12.31 pm

(baby, hannor. from taking fake mc become really need to mc hor? lol.my baby is a xiao ye mao. :P but i like. =x i really treaasure all the times we spent together and seriously thinking what will be of me when u move back home. )):

with loads of love, dalang.. dalang... ((: )

piggy baby

thank for today pei me watching hi my sweetheart... u r a sweetheart to me... i thank for lovely day i had. and i will do my best be ur sweet pie. love u.

silly baby faith 23 march 2010 5.25am

t
(my silly baby, you are the sweetest thing that ever appeared in my life, and i will wanna keep u by my side like a treasure found and continuing treasuring. i thank god for allowing you to come into my life. for u are the one who would make me go great lengths, for us and for our happy lives together in the future. ((: )

piggy baby

happy one month... sad to say i too over work myself forget about u. i'm sorry hope u will not angry. and next i know money it hard to so dun over spend so much. i love the msg.

'i miss ur silly smiles'
'i miss ur voice'
'i miss the smell of ur hair'
'i miss the way u throw lil tantrumes on me'
'i miss the way u lean on me'
'i miss ur hugs'
'i jus miss eveything about u.>.<

i miss u.Ever sec, min, hours and days. i love u

silly baby faith 28 march 2010 10.42pm

My silly baby,

it's been 2 weeks since u last left a message for me. i just wanted to let you know that. you've been the sunshine in my life ever since we've been together, perhaps ever since i knew you.

and i would so want to be the same to your life, shining thru whatever hardships u might get and i'll always be there for you.

i do get jealous when you speak of ur ex boyfriends or jeremy or charles or whoever it is.

but i know i've no right to be angry. because you have known them before me.and whatever feelings u guys had i have no right to interfere.

But i'm jealous because i love you. and i do not wish to lose you to any of those guys.

i believe that.

i want to prove myself. and to prove it to you. that i will be the one by ur side thru thick and thin.

there were two moments within this week, that something u said that touched my heart.

at plaza singapura, u asked me.

"no matter how bad i am, you would never leave me." - and i swore to god the very moment, i will never leave you.

and at our little walk to block 85 market, u asked me.

"would u carry me this way as long as you could?" - and of course i would, thou i hurt ur legs for quite a bit.

thou there were small arguments we had, we will eventually be back together as one fine couple.

i thank god for your presence in my life, and i feel just as blessed as you felt being with me.

i know i aint the best, but i'll provide you with whatever i could, just for you.

the one who loves you the most,
Your Piggy Baby.
april 06 2010 6.40pm

piggy baby

I LOVE U. I LOVE U WHEN U ARE ASLEEP, I LOVE U WHEN U CAN TAKE WITH MY TEMPER, I LOVE U THE WAY U CARE, I LOVE U WHEN U ARE WITH ME,I LOVE U WHEN I WAS PMS, I LOVE U STANDING IN MY SHOES, I LOVE U WHEN U PIGGY BAG ME, I LOVE U WHEN ARE DRIVING, I LOVE U THE WAY U EAT, I LOVE U WHEN U ARE SO TIRED STILL FORCE URSELF TO GO WORK, I LOVE U WHEN U ARE NEXT TO ME, I LOVE U WHEREVER I GO U WILL FOLLOW, I LOVE U WHEN WE ARE TEASTING, I LOVE U WHEN U ARE SHARING WITH UR PAST AND FEELING, I LOVE U WHENEVER I TALK U WILL LISTEN, I LOVE U WHEN I NEED UR HELP U ALWAY BE THERE, I LOVE U WHEN U ARE CLUMSLY, I LOVE U WHEN EVER I SAY YES OR NO U KNOW WHAT TO DO, I LOVE U WHEN I WAS OUT WITH UR FRIEND'S OR MINE FRIEND'S, I LOVE U WHEN WE WATCH MOIVE, I LOVE U CAUSE WE ARE ON SAME BOAT, I LOVE THE WAY U HUG ME TIGHT, I LOVE U WHEN U KISS ME, I LOVE U THE WAY WHEN U SLEEP ON MY LEG. I LOVE U DO THE U COOK FOR ME,I LOVE U THE WAY U BATH, I LOVE THE WAY U DRESS, I LOVE U WHEN U NEED HELP FOR ME, I LOVE U WHEN U ARE HAPPY WITH MY FRIEND CHATTING,I LOVE U WITH ALL MY HEART IF THERE ANY THING I MISS OUT I WILL UPDATE AGAIN AND AGAIN. AND BABY I LOVE U WITH ALL MY HEART.

ur silly baby faith 18 april 2010 12.50am

(but u will hit me when i say ur wrong spelling. =.= but i still love you lar. :P)

all these will be nothing but memories that will hurt my heart forever..

2010-08-10T21:48:00.002+08:00

it's all over.. she should be happy now.

no one to restrict her. no one to bother her. she can mingle with whoever she wants.

she can blame me..

i'm a jinx.

why pick me up and throw me into a hole.

i dun think she will bother bout how i feel.. no one would. back to being the loner i used to be..

i am quitting my day time job.

prolly head back to working night life.

is God really there? is that a sign?

i hope so..

i do love her.. but she loves me no more...

2010-08-09T00:03:00.003+08:00

visited my grandfolks with baby.. at their new place at haig road..

i missed them so much!

baby had a new hairstyle.. so cute. :P

2010-08-04T19:33:00.003+08:00

quite a number of things happened these weeks..

firstly baby's grandma passed away.. everyone was kinda distraught..

now my family has moved away to haig road too.. saw the house it's kinda small..

hope the my old folks can get to used to it.. however amenities are really nearby.. ((:

had a really terrible quarrel with baby recently.. but it made us realise how much we need each other..

i love u baby.. ((:

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

2010-07-16T19:36:00.004+08:00

how should i start?

it's been 2 weeks into staying here. everything's fine.

Baby's mom is like super friendly and cool.

Her younger bro is like a superfit-zai.

older one. ah... no comments yet.

i'm alone at home now thou. Baby's out with her classmates suisha-ing ( is that how it's spelt?).

she didnt have enough sleep the night before. so from morning kena her foul temper till all the way when im back home.

didnt even bother stopping for a few seconds for me.

her mood was like totally happy while meeting her classmates.

oh well. i wish she enjoys her time with her classmates.

on a side note. my chest pains are kinda more serious these days. i've no idea why.
it's like a knife piercing thru kinda pain and it's really annoying me seriously.

anyways. took neoprints with baby recently.

love her soooo much. ((:

ok. i admit maybe i'm too emo at times.

sorry baby.

maybe i should learn to tolerate her anger more.

afterall. love is not about changing the person you love. it's about how much u will wanna change for the person u truely love.

i hope ur seeing this baby.

i'm sorry baby, i've not been the bestest to you. i have my own short-comings, and i promise i'll try to improve on it for the both of us.

for ur anger may be foul, i'll be more tolerant from now on. ok?

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly..

2010-07-04T23:40:00.003+08:00

updates updates updates~

i have moved over to her place amd just finished settling down.

it's prolly a large leap back into self disciplined life and taking care of my own things.

celebrated 4 mths of love with baby at Manpuku.

anyways. i lost my iphone and identity carrd at Wavehouse 2 weeks ago.

so people. sms me if u see this. lol.

2010-06-18T09:30:00.001+08:00

It's been a while. Just an update.

I started working part time as a bartender at nana. Been great and have great colleagues too. ((:

Baby's birthday celebration was a blast.

Bought her a cake to celebrate with her. And she chomped down half the cake in 3 mins.

She made me eat up the other half of the cake. Lol

We followed up with kbox on her actual birthday. ((:

My face looks bloated. No idea why either. Lol

On Saturday. Her buddies met up for another round of celebration for her birthday. Ate at Yuki Yaki @ marina sq.

And celebrated away at the open area on marina sq.

Went to play pool and watched karate kid as well. Movie was kick ass. Lol

However after a week of celebration. The following week she developed fever. Was pretty high. 39.5. Even went to hospital. But goodness her fever subsided and now resting at home ((:

Going to wavehouse next week.

I need to run!

2010-05-30T13:07:00.001+08:00

Happy 3 months baby. ((:

Spent our 3 months anniversary on a double date with jesline.
Went for 987 RSVP and brought back prizes too.
She had her kesha album eventually too. ((:

Love you baby.

She did this while I was packing up my vehicle stuff. ((:

2010-05-14T15:55:00.001+08:00

I am very vexed.

I do not know what to do next alr.

Frustration. Confusion. Exhaustion.

Someone tell me what to do?

2010-05-04T16:12:00.001+08:00

I have been workin in my uncle's company for 3 weeks.

Well I must say. It's a big change once again reverting back to a slightly more normal life.

In a way. I could spend more time with her too.

Anyway. Happy two months to u baby.

Piggy loves u. ((:

Thru our lil arguments and quarrels over nothings. We are prolly more in love with each other.

Anyways. Our 2nd month was celebrated over Taiwan street cafe with her munching down sandwiches and toasts and iron man 2.

I warnt moii biiirrd.

Lol.

Pictures. ((:

2010-04-24T10:37:00.001+08:00

Visited Romeo yesterday at allegro.

Had some drinks and churros.

Baby was high after 2 drinks. Lol

Went home and slept like a pig.
Lol

2010-04-13T00:13:00.001+08:00

你可以说我笨或者白痴。

说我什么都好

就算是世界停止转动
就算是天踏了下来

我们都不会分开。((:

2010-04-03T14:48:00.001+08:00

Good Friday had us spending the day at home while we went out for smelly toufu at night. ((;

Went on to plaza sing to play 抓抓. Spent near 90 bucks caught 2 bags full of soft plushies and 2jps. We want sth better. We exchanged all for jps. Now we've got 3.

Caught clash of the titans later in late morning and we headed back to tampines.

Breakfast at tamp macs. ((:

((: till then.

2010-04-01T17:27:00.001+08:00

Been pretty busy lately.
Celebrated out first month anniversary thru out the whole of last weekend.

Dined at Astons and at earle swenson.

Spent sweet and simple times drinking tea at home. Snapped loads pics. Lol

Pics of us while dining. Lol

Heaps more of pictures actually. Oh well.

Anyways. Went to couple lab to get our couple rings done. And gonna get it on sunday hopefully. ((:

Currently now on ict. Till next Friday. So it's kinda free from me. And also to retune my body clock. Lol. I'm starting my new job on the 15th.

Till then. I'll update again. ((:

2010-03-26T14:18:00.001+08:00

I made my baby angry this morning. :/
couldn't make myself go back to sleep,
So I made this for her.

2010-03-22T11:15:00.001+08:00

apparently someone has not gotten over how her bf cheated on her over another girl and is still pretty bitter about it as she had to maintain all along that how 'GREAT' her bf was (-not-).

in a bid to cover it up, she has to vent it on me. oh wells. i'm pretty magnaminous.

anyways, was pretty sick on sunday. took mc.

had to trouble baby till she woke up late for work.

sorry baby. )):

anyways, my resignation has been tendered. gonna work till next month.

gonna head on down to sentosa tmr with baby. ((:

2010-03-11T18:15:00.001+08:00

current location: toa payoh library..

waiting for baby to come up as she has some things to attend to.. been waiting for the past two hours.. hope she's fine..

2010-03-11T16:14:00.005+08:00

yesterday was full of ups and downs in a way or rather.

baby had her last paper yesterday. and in an attempt to make my marmite chicken recipe better.

i whipped out marmite chicken with chicken cubes and marmite sauce. now with less watery gravy and it turned out saucier. and WAYYY TOO SALTY. =.=

oh wells. sorry baby to have made ur tongue suffer quite a bit. =x

yea.. we chilled out at home. watched tv. basically. sweetness. :D

sent her home while she prepped for our nights out to club.

went to meet her friend. abby. then headed to arena.

baby lost her itouch there.

WHOEVER TOOK THE ITOUCH. HAND AND LEGS BETTER ROT AND DROP OFF.

pains me to see her this sad. she basically scrimped to buy that beloved itouch of hers.

abby was already high when she downeed that one pint can of amsterdam beer.

then the whole night went around with them running to and fro arena and rebel while i just waited at arena drinking with alex and his cousin.

i was bored to bits.. so i did this for baby.

the night ended at 4am with me being tricked to drink a shot of 151.

cabbed home. baby stayed over the night.

gonna work at 1pm till 5am on friday. cool.

baby's working from 5am till afternoon. gonna be able to see her only on sunday already.

)):

2010-03-09T01:12:00.002+08:00

It's now past 12 am. Just got back home after sending my baby back home.

Sunday. Met up with baby at my place before we headed out. Went bugis. And then to national library to study. Was hiding in this corner. Where she studied and I.

Fell asleep.

Silly baby took a picture of me. =.=

Went on to have dinner then off to nearby macs to continue studying her paper. Went off to work at 845pm

Ended wrk. Went home and slept. Woke up then went off to meet baby before heading home with her.

Cooked campbell soup and indomee for lunch with her.

And basically slacked the whole day at home with baby.

Have to make sure she studies tmr alr.

Then off we are to enjoy clubbing after her paper on Wednesday.

Who's coming? =.=

2010-03-07T13:37:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was nothing but sweetness with her. I'll let the pictures do the talking. ((:

Meeting her laters. ((:

2010-03-03T10:48:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was with baby for near the whole day. Lol.

Woke up. Went to supermarket and bought ingredients to cook pasta for her.

She came. We ate. And she went to sleep. =.=

We went to bugis later that evening. Got her bracelet I got for her fixed and she got me this.

Domo!

We walked around bugis. Then headed back to tamp.

Time spent with her was simple and nothing but sweetness.

Yea. Both of us purposely wore specs. Geek alert. Lol

The bracelet gift I gotten for her.

=.=

2010-02-28T23:43:00.001+08:00

Wasn't feeling very well today. Yesterday was damn busy. Fortunately, Baby was there.

Having headaches. Those terrible headaches are a pain in the ass. And head too. Lol

Met up with baby this afternoon. Caught dear john with her. Fantabulastic story line. ((:

Then went to see doctor. Realised I had cold sores till to stress. And top of that. The annoying headaches.

Hung around at home with her. Everything was simple and just sweet.

She's my bunch of sweet cuteness. =.=

Missing her to bits alr. =.=

2010-02-27T08:44:00.001+08:00

is feeling the fuzzy wuzzy feeling...

all over again. >.<

2010-02-16T21:38:00.003+08:00

now at illuma with ah-lian amanda. lol.

cny was boring as shit. lol.

anyways, went out with amanda on cny day 1, happened to be valentines also. lol. she was my fake date.

went on to have dinner at taiwan xing wang cafe, food was yummy.

service wise. sucks like zzz.

take our orders, wait for 20 mins.

wait for food, another 15 mins.

pay money. LESS THAN 10 SECONDS.

lol. the best part.

wait for our change.

ANOTHER 20 MINUTES.

wtffffffff.

at least have the decency to tell us that u guys are busy and we have to hold on for a while longer right?

zzz.

headed on to river angbao. she saw someone she didnt wanna see.

and oh wells. met up with edwina and benny to head down to UP.

hung around for a while and left cos i've got work.

work. the moment i went in. BUSY.

zzzz.

day 2 wasnt that bad.

lol.

and day 3, today. now out with amanda. looking at her play L4D.

watching Valentines Day with her later.

bouight myself a new iphone pouch.

expensive. zz.

but oh wells.

i like!

my foot hurts.

zzz.

2010-02-11T18:10:00.001+08:00

Location: mrt train.

Currently headed to Dover to meet Nini for dinner.

Went to vicki's 21st birthday during the weekends. Took leave for her some more.

木头。感动吗? Lol

Dinner and dance was great. But yea. Came home with a super bad blister on my foot thanks to the new shoe.

Chinese new year is around the corner. Yet I don't feelany festive mood at all. Great. Guess working on cny itself shouldn't be that bad.

Can't wait for valentines to get over and done with.

To quote Priscilla.

"VALENTINES DAY MY FOOT!"

2010-02-02T19:14:00.000+08:00

stone. stoning and stoned.

current location : suntec starbucks.

bought another pair of shoes. guess i'm pretty done with cny stuff after buying one more belt.

2010-02-02T02:11:00.002+08:00

塞纳河畔闹市炊烟

混杂人间小愚昧

你的出现将气氛改写空气转变圣洁感觉

青苹果是你野蛮的甜
牛奶与蜜是你的语言

沈默尤其是一种迷迭

当你无心轻轻的拒绝

马蹄踏平了国界

野心磨破了披肩
动员了麻瓜魔戒寻找拼凑你的香味

樱桃和樱花缠绵
茉莉和没药拼贴

香颂和香榭调配也许再加一点眼泪

就算你没有答应

就算你也不拒绝

就算我从不打算全身而逃全身而退

就让我活到脱轨

就让我爱到脱线

就让我为爱而生一千世纪无间轮回

为你献上快乐伤悲

为你献上我的世界

2010-02-02T00:06:00.003+08:00

didnt exactly wanna head out today, cos wasnt feeling really well.

i have a runny nose and feeling damn feverish.

but well. xiuhui was one heck of a pester.

ok didnt really mean to say that.

i'm not that mean. lol

went on to airport t3 to have dinner and stroll around.

took some pics. lol.

link.

2010-01-29T20:17:00.003+08:00

came back from genting on tuesday night.

genting was fun. win some lose some lar. lol. but it was time and money well spent. in a good way i.e

checked out on tuesday noon, the rest went to KLCC while i alone trudged to Chinatown at KL myself.

went back to those familiar places.

the street market.

the hotel.

the convenience store where we bought those silly cigars.

the roasted duck.

the bouquet of bears and flowers you pestered me to buy.

the gui ling gao..

the flavoured muah chees and pancakes..

the fish spa and massage..

and all other moments..

relieving those moments..

and bury them to the back of my head where i won't even know where it is.

goodbye. memories.

pictures are in facebook.

shant alaborate too much already..

saw lana and derrick at Zirca yesterday.

days are back to the usual.

looking forward to Vicki's 21st birthday chalet.

and valentines' day. i think. it's prolly called off if she's busy.

......

signing off.

2010-01-23T19:35:00.000+08:00

i'm damn in love with my baby. <3

iphone 3Gs. :P

2010-01-22T17:00:00.001+08:00

i'm going to KL and Genting on Sunday. :D

anyways.. i took leave for vicki's birthday chalet. hope they approve it asap. =.=

2010-01-20T12:25:00.001+08:00

我不是真正的快樂我的笑只是我穿的保護色.

2010-01-19T09:21:00.002+08:00

location: Chambers @ town.

went to boat quay with keirel yesterday. left around 10.40pm to meet the usuals for lan gaming.

had a fall on my way there. knee still hurts till now.

a lot of thoughts ran thru my head these days.

as easy i might put it into words, it's difficult to put my thoughts into actions.

i still think of her some how.

it's nothing bout missing her. seriously.

neither is it about love.

or rather. it's a void in my heart somehow.

i've no idea anymore..

i wish.

i wish to find that new lease of fresh life.

i aint happy still.

i aint happy with myself at all.

i've no idea why.

i'm supposed to be happier now. why aren't i?

well. at least. she is.

i'm such an oxymoron.

2010-01-12T22:01:00.003+08:00

刚刚从我一位朋友的blog看到这一段..

******************
我寻找的只是种安慰吧。
被人拥抱的安慰。
被人疼的安慰。
被人呵护的安慰。

那，因该不是爱吧。

那，不是爱。

那，根本不是爱。
***************

应为那是叫..

被爱。

2010-01-11T18:32:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling super cranky now. =.=

i asked her out for a valentines' date.

she agreed.

^^y

2010-01-11T08:27:00.002+08:00

slept for more tthan 12 hrs yesterday.

i just wish i could continue sleeping.

and never wake up.

i will be nothing. but a passing fade.

:)

a stepping stone, that will be forgotten.

2010-01-09T19:37:00.003+08:00

just watched Have you Heard about the Morgans with Keirel just now. :)

kinda draggy and VERY DRAMA at parts but then, the wyry humour made up for it.

yea.. headed for work after that, and keirel went off for dinner with her aunt/uncle at some hotel.

while i'll be eating dapao food. ._.

nonetheless. elize is coming today. :D

okies. gonna start work soon. =.=

2010-01-05T22:41:00.002+08:00

location: boat quay. UP Bar.

finished projection and production stuff in c'town, then headed to meet keirel in boat quay.

been drinking these days, guess i've been in wallowing for the past few months.

time to walk up and look forward.

grasp all chances. not gonna look back.

gonna go genting soon at the end of the month. :)

and to you. i might be all ignorant and whatsoever, it's for ur own good.

anyways. had news from my aunt, we're selling away the house. moving out.

guess 2010's not that bad afterall.

:D

2010-01-04T23:21:00.001+08:00

it's time to just let me go.

let me move on.

you should too.

2009-12-31T12:16:00.004+08:00

lols.

butter was fun at first. before it turned all squeezy. and #@$%@#$#$!@.

supposed to meet shinhui first at Plaza Sing, then she tell me she had to go Far East to buy shoes.

So i went to had my haircut, walked around, before heading to Far East.

Headed there, met up with ShinHui and Cheryl was there too. :D

As usual, Shinhui was just buying, buying,buying, and still buying.

i told her to just buy down the whole Far East better right?

Dinner was at Koyabashi ( heck the spelling can?), they had their curry bento. lol. annd i was eating something that i've no idea what it is actually. lol. think it was saba fish + bokgeum beef.

walked around. this cap caught my eye, with all the very Rastafarian colours.

We ACU the SubCrew

At first we all thought it was a misprint, since it's only selling @ 5 bucks. but it's not, google it out if u guys wanna know more. :D

ok, met up with vonne eventually, and we cabbed down to butter, queued up from 9 to 10pm.
and also waited to kerrine to come down. =.=

she came down eventually, and i also passed her the long overdued xmas present.

hope she liked it. =.=

anyways, we went up to Bump, got our drinks. and started playing 敲敲杯.

lols. all others around us started playing too. =x

the game ended up with all of us having totally, no idea who's the ghost eventually.

well. headed to the dancefloor, havoc.

we met rowdy people, crazy people, and a molester.

kerrine had to go off early, as she had work.

vonne had a 'lover'

cheryl met with the 'molester'

shinhui was just being crazy ( as usual)

the 'molester', didnt get away scot-free. i was already staring at him.

Totally disgusting, just standing there, staring at cheryl's butt as if got gold like that. then he starts to 'caress' her. i just yanked him out and shouted to him, making sure everyone else heard it.

'YOU DANCING OR YOU TOUCHING MY FRIEND'S BUTT!?'

LOL.

and so on and fourth.

We wanted to share a waterfall, but realised.

no waterfall. and not even flaming lambo.

we all left by around 2.30am.

cheryl and vonne didnt wait for me to take the cab. zz.

headed down to macs @ raffles city, looking like a dumb ass.

bought a mega mcspicy meal, sat down and stared at the burger, for like 20 mins. only to realise i'm stoning after that.

anyways, waited for the first train and trained home.

let the pictures do the talking now.

:D

FACEBOOK PHOTO ALBUM : Buttery Butter Factory

2009-12-27T12:24:00.000+08:00

'm heading down butter factory this wednesday.

:D

2009-12-18T13:57:00.000+08:00

i do not know what to type anymore. feeling damn empty. zzz.

2009-12-15T16:20:00.004+08:00

it's raining~

lol. just woke up.. anyways, pictures from yesterday uploaded.

let the pictures do the talking.

here you go. :D

Facebook Album :D REDBULL at REDHILL

2009-12-15T03:46:00.001+08:00

i feel fucking drunk as i'm typing this. :D

first time clubbing in 4 mths. thou i;m drunk like crap, this is one of the happiest days in my life. ever since being away from you. ever since this heartbroken.

good night guys.

2009-12-08T17:33:00.002+08:00

I KNOW YOU'RE READING THIS.

you're the one who turned me down the last time. so don't come around asking me if i still miss or love you. does it really matter?

you're getting married.

stop your nonsense. ur husband-to-be is -WAY- much better, and LEAVE ME ALONE.

i do not wanna hear ANYTHING, and i meant ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING from you ANYMORE.

including ur bills. mails and everything else. i see one. i burn one.

2009-12-08T12:55:00.002+08:00

如果两个人的天堂
象是温馨的墙
囚禁你的梦想
幸福是否象是一扇铁窗
候鸟失去了南方
如果你对天空向往
渴望一双翅膀
放手让你飞翔
你的羽翼不该伴随玫瑰
听从凋谢的时光
浪漫如果变成了牵绊
我愿为你选择回到孤单
缠绵如果变成了锁链
抛开诺言
有一种爱叫做放手
为爱放弃天长地久
我们相守若让你付出所有
让真爱带我走
为爱结束天长地久
我的离去若让你拥有所有
让真爱带我走说分手

when i tried to give us a chance back then after the door jamming incident, u said there's no way you could see anything between us anymore.

my heart already died. so i guess it will be this way.

i give you my blessings.

2009-12-02T20:37:00.002+08:00

notebook crashed for the very first time.

gave up. formatted my notebook. now using windows XP, total eye candied with winblinds.

hopefully kerrine's coming to look for me today. lols.

lynn's saying she's gonna be a good girl alr. let's say how true will it last. =x

and shasha spotted me while i was walking to clarke quay today. LOL.

i was like 'where the heck are you' when she sms-ed me. lols.

oks. gotta head to work alr.

today's post all pretty much random.

let's hope for a busy night tonight. :D

2009-12-01T11:57:00.001+08:00

now in lan shop, chambers. have been here since yesterday 10.30pm. it's now 11.58am.

i am so gonna die. -.-

2009-11-30T15:28:00.003+08:00

it's a total hangover crossover.

went for nick's wedding dinner yesterday. drank alot.

met up with terance regan and jolene for ratchada. drank some more.

we parted ways and i went off to chambers to play lan.

no. actually i kinda slept more than i played there.

anyways, heading out to kallang now. ice-skating. gonna get my butt wet from falling alr. lol. and laters for prawning.

pictures will come soon. :)

2009-11-29T10:40:00.003+08:00

my first off day, on a sunday, away from the usuals. finally.

anyways. headed down to bedok camp straight after work. cab costs me 7 bucks. wtf. nvm. anyways. i injured my knee during work so i was excused from RT today.

had my hair cut alr. i look better now. later have to get some clothes, for nick's wedding dinner.

prolly meeting lynn for lunch laters. haven't seen her in quite a while.

ok lar. saw her at rebel yesterday for a brief while. LOL.

2009-11-27T07:29:00.003+08:00

it's hari raya haji~

time flies. it's already november end.

anyways. bangkok trip has bbeen cancelled. going Genting on end-january instead.

will be flying to KL and taking a bus up to genting.

I PROMISE MYSELF NOT TO GAMBLE IN THE CASINO.

no joke. serious.

i don't wanna come back a broken (or dead) man. LOL.

speaking of which. RT is coming. this sunday, followed by nick's wedding dinner in the evening. contemplating clubbing after that actually. lol. well. not confirmed.

anyways. i'm prolly gonna go do my hair laters. :D

2009-11-24T20:24:00.002+08:00

monday night, went prawning with the alot of people ( xiuhui, feifei, ben, manfred, yvonne, her friend, mo, misuzu, evelyn and lynn and others i might forget. lol.) at sinming ave. caught around 12 prawns myself over 3 hrs.

it's been a long time since i last tasted fresh prawns. yum. :D

it's around 2am.. feifei and the rest went off for drinks.

and some of us, went on to chambers@selegie to play L4D2, but ends up, no L4D2 for the computers we used. zz. played till around 10.30am, while lynn left at around 5am as she had to go back home.

i overslept in the bus while on my way home. had to walk back. luckily it aint far.

anyway, had my 6th nosebleed this month this morning.

cool.

2009-11-22T09:27:00.002+08:00

I wake up everyday, it's a day dream.
Everything in my life aint what it seems.
I wake up just to go back to sleep.
I act real shallow but I'm in too deep.

Some people think I'm bonkers, but I think I'm free.
Man, I'm just living my life, There's nothing crazy bout me.

2009-11-21T06:56:00.002+08:00

why do you keep telling me this? does it help anymore? you already have HIM, why bother bout me? even if u did, i cant bring myself to believe it, especially when ur with HIM together.

i'm now fucking emo. thanks to you.

2009-11-16T19:17:00.002+08:00

There's a metoer shower tomorrow. in between 8pm-5am. look to the east and drive away from the glow of city lights.

i'll prolly be feeling alone.

2009-11-12T21:36:00.003+08:00

monday was offday.

xiuhui, terrance and the usual people asked out for L4D at chambers once again. i got yvonne to come along too. spent some time teachi broke. taught her basic stuffs about the game, she picked it up pretty good. :D later on, some went off to ratchada and sabai, while the rest of us continued gaming till 8am or so. headed to mediacorp to collect my cash cheque later on.

tuesday was offday. was already super broke. terrance still jio me go gaming. oh well. went along. play till morning once again (it was already wednesday). went home by bus. headed down to buy mackerel and some premixed gravy to cook for someone, cos i owe her dinner. lol. cooked. and prepared for work. busy. but guess we reached workplace, had cocktail test. seriously think i will flunk it big time.

thursday, today, frigging sleepy. slept till around 7pm. woke up. had instant noodles for dinner. went off for work.

went up the bus. realise i forgot my wallet.

got down. went up. take wallet came down. had to wait for another 15 mins for the bus.

rushed for the train afterwards. and here i am. 9.46pm. and only in bugis. i am running late.

zz.

2009-11-08T10:57:00.001+08:00

The night is my cover,
The day, my disguise,
But I just can't seem to escape,
From wondering,judgemental eyes.

They're always watching and waiting,
For that moment you turn your head,
It makes me feel uncomfrotable,
While I'm lying in my bed.

I should'nt leave my house,
Or maybe even my room,
Because they're lurking in every shadow,
Waiting to drop the bomb of doom.

I can't help but avert my eyes,
When I receive an unsteady glance,
They're judging me, I know it,
They'll make fun of me at every chance.

Did I do something wrong,
I don't have a doubt in my mind,
The truth is that in this world,
Sanity is so hard to find.

2009-11-08T07:03:00.001+08:00

i wanna save up! clear all debts asap.. save up for bkk trip on feb next year!

:DDD

who wanna come along?

2009-11-07T06:53:00.002+08:00

i feel damn empty these days.

like. void of life.

just work work work work and work.

someone inject life into me please?

后来我总算学会了如何去爱
可惜你早已远去消失在人海
后来终于在眼泪中明白
有些人一旦错过就不在
桔子花白花瓣落在我蓝色百褶裙上
「爱你」你轻声说
我低下头闻见一阵芬芳
那个永恒的夜晚十七岁仲夏你吻我的那个夜晚
让我往后的时光每当有感叹
总想起当天的星光
那时候的爱情为什么就能那样简单
而又是为什么人年少时
一定要让深爱的人受伤
在这相似的深夜里你是否一样也在静静追悔感伤
如果当时我们能不那么倔强
现在也不那么遗憾
你都如何回忆我带着笑或是很沉默
这些年来有没有人能让你不寂寞
永远不会再重来
有一个男孩爱着那个女孩..

well. people tell me. just move on. i wish i could.

but the pains remains deep still. how to?

2009-11-03T19:30:00.000+08:00

安静的房间还有你的温柔
躺在棉被上看着多的枕头
为何分手后回忆就被偷走
爱情走到尽头是否可以做朋友
你和我以前是朋友心情不错
就想约你走走　
你要电影　我听你唱歌
我们总是无话不说
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
谁懂这坎坷..

2009-11-03T19:13:00.002+08:00

went for lan-gaming with my colleagues @ Zirca (Xiuhui, Ben) and CSOs (Reagan, Terence, Andrew, etc.)yesterday. lol.

xiuhui asked me to meet her at 3.30. pretty much expected, i only saw her at 5.30. zz.

nvm. went on to far east plaza at orchard to buy her slippers, then we walked to cine to meet reagan for dinner and some L4D warm up.

headed on to park lane to wait for the rest of the guys while we nua-ed at TCC PoMo.

the rest of the guys reached and there we go for L4D.

and i realise how much lousier i got after not being playing it for some time.

after some time, some of the guys left, we finished up our game, and we headed down to boat quay for drinks. and i saw Ben dance. Hilarious.

it was a ktv pub. nice place.

there was this song which was played, reminded me of a lot of things. but..

nvm.

2009-10-30T20:11:00.002+08:00

i guess its a brand new chapter in life, for me.

like finally.

away from pain. away from cheats.

it's not gonna be easy for sure. but i believe i can pick up.

it's HALLOWEEN TMR.

and it's gonna be HAVOC.

come find me at rebel, i will be dressed up anyways!

Come b4 12am dressed up for your kill, u get free entry.

see ya guys tmr! lol.

2009-10-27T21:37:00.001+08:00

it's nothing but a pack of lies.

2009-10-27T20:41:00.004+08:00

halloween is coming soon. time to prep my costumes. lol.

it was work. home. sleep. work for the past few days.

you said to meet up when i was working. i cant as it's obvious enough.

and when it's my off day, u said to meet. after a while u said u were busy. and called it off.

something in me tells me something's wrong. sigh.

whatever.

2009-10-20T09:56:00.003+08:00

i walked from bugis. to geylang. had ho kee porridge. munched onto a random stone in the minced meat. rest for an hour. continued walking. walked on to bedok. wanted to buy myself ice kachang. they said it's too early to make ice kachang. wtf. bought 3 cans of jiajialiangteh and downed it and i took a bus home.

i'm typing like this cos' my brain's pretty dead right now. zz.

2009-10-16T15:27:00.002+08:00

beeen busy these days actually.

basically it was just work. getting home. sleep. and waking up to work again.

yesterday met up with prac and the rest thou, for badminton.

anyways, i heard that we've got make up artistes, for halloween.

i'm gonna get my face drawn on. >:{

darn.

2009-10-13T07:33:00.003+08:00

went to emerald hill to settle some stuffs at night, before meeting some friends for a movie.

Haeundae - The Deadly Tsunami

anyways. bumped into AMAHnda before the show.

nice show. touching. and funny as hell for some parts.

went for supper. then headed for OCH. there was 6 of us. but. only me and horse went in.

nothing much to be scary of. yea. lol.

went home, bought some beer too.

slogging beer at 6am. sounds weird.

anyways. i happened to listen out for the cue to call for the Subaru Imprezza Challenge. I just took my time and called.

I GOT THROUGH.

and I'M IN!

LOL.

ok. i'm tired now.

2009-10-10T10:05:00.003+08:00

yesterday was busy busy busy.

the whole place was mayhem with Zirca's NIGHTCLASS crowd overflowing to Rebel.

i was stuck at the cashier's for at least 30 mins, i guess. just to take orders orders. and more orders.

Bar got pretty much way too busy as well, everything was slowed down. everyone got kinda pissed. but well. it's the overwhelming crowd.

for me. i dragged on from 9.30pm till around 2.30am, that is when i got my first break.

anyway, jolene popped by. with his bf as well. lol. funny people. hope they enjoyed their night.

settled closing stuffs.. had a few drinks with colleagues. got pretty emo bout certain thingys. went home. took off a dozen of beers. and here i am.

this whole week. 4 days consecutive of starting work at 6pm.

please. saturday. don't end up like yesterday.

goodness gracious..

2009-10-09T15:14:00.003+08:00

it's just another day..

life has been becoming less and less interesting.

went home this morning with fever and a real crappy headache.

managed to sleep it off i think. the headache still remains. fever, i guess it's subsiding..

having mixed feelings these days, on D, maybe i was too quick to throw things into the air.

she's right, it's too fast. we have not even went out for one proper time.

i've prolly spoilt it all already.

2009-10-07T20:14:00.001+08:00

Whenever i come back, the air on railroad is making the same sounds.
And the shop fronts on holly are dirty words.
We peered through the windows... new bottoms on barstools but the people remain the same, with prices inflating.

As if saved from the gallows.
There's a bellow of buzzers and the people stop working and they're all so excited.

Passing through unconscious states.
When i awoke i was on the highway.

With your hand on my shoulders, a meaningless movement... a moviescript ending,
And the patrons are leaving, leaving.

Now we all know the words were true in the sappiest songs (yes, yes).
I'll put them to bed, but they won't sleep, they're just shuffling the sheets,
they toss and turn, you can't begin to get it back.

Passing through unconscious states.
When i awoke i was on
The onset of a later stage... the headlights are beacons on the highway.

2009-10-07T06:56:00.003+08:00

i feel stupid.

Did you know you have a special way of turning around my terrible days?
You make all the bad things go away
the second that you say hello.

It's the way that you talk, that you laugh, that you smile.
If beauty was inches you'd go on for miles.
It's the way that you make everything seem worth while
the second that you say hello.

It's the way every love song reminds me of you.
Along with the stars and the sunset here too.
It's the way that you make the sky seem more blue
the second that you say hello.

So if love is a drug then i guess i'm addicted.
All i want is to have yours.
It's making my heart sick.
Goodbye is what broke it and you were what fixed it
the second that you said hello.

The Second You Say - Chase Coy

2009-10-06T16:41:00.002+08:00

All is gone. it will never come back.

All is lost. it will never be the same.

All is past. I will never be myself again.

Like a wounded dove
Falling from the sky
And like a mockingbird
Witnessing a lie

Like waves crashing from the sea
And stormy clouds and misery
Distracting as love's first strike
And hurts as bad as a knife

Like a sunset on a sunny day
And the moonlight going away
Like a starving man's last bite
And a dying girl's last night

No relief and no rest
From the persevering pest
That eats away at your soul
And leaves you alone forevermore

That is pain
Of that there is no doubt
What can be the only way out?

2009-10-02T15:17:00.002+08:00

it's official.

working full time in Rebel/Zirca. :D

2009-10-01T13:59:00.002+08:00

mixed feelings.

work yesterday was usual. nothing to shout about.

today will be going down to HR to sign my papers to be a full time staff.

sign already, have to wait till 8.30pm before i start work. zz.

2009-09-29T01:48:00.002+08:00

i may goof around.
i may not speak up.
i may appear like an idiot.
but never take me as one.

i do not speak up,

because i'm not the least bothered.

and if you want me to take care of ur friend, who is my friend as well.

you are telling me that i can't take care of a friend?

don't take me (or my life) like a joke.

you do not even get to waver any bit of me. you still have a long way to go.

if you're so great. get her the job then.

if ur so great, go get the bottles yourself.

if you're so great, don't even ask of my help.

do not give me any of ur shit.

because i'll give u a life shittier than shit.

that's all i have to say.

2009-09-26T09:09:00.003+08:00

i am at vivocity while typing this.

i came here right after work. no sleep. free breakfast. pretty cool.

i'm at the great singapore treasure hunt.

lol.

work was damn busy yesterday.

ok.

i do like some one. but i won't ever dare to tell her anyway. i don't think i'll ever be good enough for her anyway.

it's prolly infatuation i hope. but i just cant help but to be attracted to every single little thing she does.

2009-09-25T08:48:00.003+08:00

4 days since last update. ok. i know.

was busy with work.

was told to be confirmed as full-time staff by next mth. :D

anyways, yesterday. Thursday.

went out with Eve. accompanied her to HR to sign her employment letters as she's starting work today. Went on and wondered around Great World City.

Went to Best Denki, didnt see Edwina. prolly off day.
made a fool of myself playing the keyboard. literally pressing -one- button at a time. lol.

i'm so not musically-inclined. oh well.

anyways. we went to watch 4Bia2 later on.

the bloody poster was damn hard to find. zz.

movie wasnt exactly very scary. 4Bia was so much better.

there was like a zombie apocalypse. and a -never-near-scary part in the last story.

laughed till peng.

met up with ximin after that, while Eve went off to batok mac to study with her friend.

went to look for them after ximin left.

koryn was being irritating, bombing me nonsensical questions.

they went off for prawning after a while while i sent Eve home eventually.

didnt have any way to get back home from batok.

so i literally msn/facebook on my phone from 3am to 5.30am, together with some beer. :D

getting to work later.

and yes,

The Great Singapore Treasure Hunt for $10,000.

Saturday. die die will go.

2009-09-22T20:41:00.002+08:00

worked my weekends away.

was at jonathan's chalet yesterday with a few friends, raine, pink.

played some games. made a few people drink hell loadsa water. totally indian poker.

you guys know who you are.

finally, work tmr. i'm getting pretty bored.

2009-09-18T14:35:00.002+08:00

it's JH's birthday today. lol.

my head's pretty blanked now.

ok. byebye.

2009-09-16T17:10:00.002+08:00

life seems meaningless.

what's family bond?

i dun feel it.

i only hear snide remarks.

nothing good.

especially after what happened over 2 mths recently.

Her.

i feel like i'm an empty shell. Listless. Aimless.

Left with nothing.

Left to die.

2009-09-13T21:44:00.002+08:00

working on friday was hectic. was running here and there.

but carrie came by to see me at work. suffered a few whacks on my arms as usual.

but still, thanks carrie. :D

left work earlier at 5. headed down to Arena to meet up with Alex. Carrie already left by then. -.-
bumped into old friends. left for home at 6.

woke up at 2pm. was basically rotting away in bed. feel asleep again. woke up to find myself getting late.

reached clarke quay at 6.20. supervisor told me that i slotted to 8.30pm instead cos i was late.

oh well. nvm.

jiahui and dan came by for their interview too.

yea. anyway. finished work at around 7am.

had some sorta mild argument with huimin. but yea. hope ur grandma recovers soon.

reached home by 8.30am.

washed up. headed out to church by 9.15am.

didnt join the rest of them for lunch, for i was too tired.

settled my own lunch, went home and slept.

i LITERALLY fell asleep the moment i hit the pillow.

i woke up. at 5 or 6pm(couldnt really remember) for a light dinner.

went back to sleep.

woke up like only 5 mins ago, and here i am in this entry.

declaring.

i've had the most no-life weekend ever. lols.

2009-09-10T11:38:00.002+08:00

first day of work @ REBEL.

totally cool.

thanks Sheep, Raine, Adam and all the rest for sarpork.

And also those others (that i do not really know) with Raine who were around.

Happened to bump into a few army friends as well.

everything was smooth man.

started off at 6.30pm yesterday. reached home at 7am today.

have to memorise prices. and i'm ready to go.

Wednesday nights. Friday and Saturday nights.

Catch me there. :D

and yes. you. if i'm spineless. your 'boyfriend' has jisms (go fuckin google it if u do not know the meaning) for spines. and yes dogs, they look nice and stuff. but one thing. you should have heard of.

狗改不了吃粪.

someone's ah lian pattern coming out already.

your bf's cowering over and NEEDS YOU to protect him after he goes fucking around and CHEATING people. and then comes around pot calling kettle black.

aiyah. ah sia kia. what to do?

throw money around and buy some LV or Gucci. And there you have it.

yar. did i forget?

someone wore skimpy tubes (that looks as good as not wearing them) to a sentosa countdown party. let bangala touch alr then scream molest.

a true blue example of 咎由自取.

2009-09-09T12:13:00.003+08:00

interview. kallang. telok kurau. carpenter street.

wish me luck.

i need a job badly.

I wanna catch Megan Fox's Jennifer's Body.

yea. some bitch who doesnt have a mirror said i'm fugly, like woo? i'm ugly. so? i've good friends around me. your boyfriend was fooling around and you had to speak up for him. like WOW. hhow much u pay him a mth?

srsly. what goes around. comes around. he can do this to my friend. he will one day do the same thing back on you. i'll be laughing till the cows come home when it happens.

2009-09-07T08:53:00.002+08:00

was out the whole day yesterday. went to sentosa for a church event.

yea. totally fun (including shoving bread + wasabi up my mouth).

new friends and a few great ones.

thanks huimin, jared, flora and lionel for pulling me in on this one. :D

2009-09-03T19:20:00.003+08:00

guess everything now turned out for the better..

air suddenly feels much fresher to me.

anyway. i'm at macs. time now is 7.21. batt is getting low this very moment i'm typing this..

i was supposed to meet them at 7.

wrong. they're supposed to MEET ME at 7.

zz.

stonez.

Heroes and SmallVille later. :( doubt i could be on time to catch it anyways.

2009-09-02T15:21:00.002+08:00

那一条牙膏在对我傻笑
嘲笑我永远用不掉
想睡就睡想闹就闹
好快乐少了人唠叨

蓝色的碗盘多买了一套
我忘了没人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角无辜的陪笑
才会让我能真的忘了你的好

我在搞笑藉着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉我受不了
还在搞笑害怕回家不知怎麽熬
这麽多年早就习惯有你的撒娇
我想我能熬但是至少要让我知道你好不好

我们的小狗食量变好小
眼神里常常显得无聊
它习惯睡觉的床尾少了一双脚
所以它常常看着门口睡不着

我在搞笑藉着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉我受不了
我在搞笑却在醉后眼泪拼命飙
你的离开失去多少我计算不了
忙完了一天突然觉得又何必辛劳对谁炫耀

还在搞笑是否拥有麻痹的疗效
唱一夜歌却避不开催泪的曲调
我彻夜胡闹希望听到有人会提到你好不好

2009-08-31T21:44:00.003+08:00

fuck you.
i seriously hate you to the core.
thanks to you. my life is in shambles.
seriously i CURSE u. i've never cursed anyone. but u made it to the top.

i CURSE THAT YOU'LL NEVER FIND SOMEONE WHO TREATS U WELL AND THAT YOUR FRIENDS WILL ...KNOW FUCKING SELFISH AND DEMANDING U ARE.
STOP CLAIMING TT U STILL LOVE ME. BULLSHIT.

i wouldnt be fucking surprised if i end up DEAD! ALL FUCKING THANKS TO YOU.

UR FRIENDS ALL DAMN ATAS DAMN GOOD.

MY FRIENDS ARE ALL LOWLY YA?

I WILL ALWAYS BE A SHADOW AND A MILD PRESENCE IN EVERYONE'S LIFE.

FUCK.

2009-08-30T14:52:00.003+08:00

i've learnt. i'll let you go. i'll just leave things with you as it is.

i've never felt better.

yesterday was fun. amanda was crazy. i shall spare the details.

you want details, u go read her blog lar. amanda <-- link

red wine. white wine. red wine. white wine. vodka shots.
all that equates to amanda = DRUNK.

all before 11.30pm. :P HAHAHAHAHA

had to trouble alex to send her back.

and yes. amanda. you almost killed us all. zzzz.

me and mimie plus cathy headed on to Arena soon after. danced. and there was a slight argument. we seperated ways.

while on my way back. one bloody bangala accused me of taking his wallet when i was just sitting alone eating instant noodles. and only to realise. his wallet was all along on the floor.

May all truth be dead.

我不是真正的快樂 我的笑只是我穿的保護色.

我不是真正的快樂我的笑只是我穿的保護色.